Honeymoon Phase is about a 23 year old girl whose life circumstances and then adult choices have landed her surrounded by total chaos. She believes marriage will fix it. It doesn't. Her solutions are worse than her problems until she finds her way to an inner strength she didn't know existed.
I am fascinated by the choices we make and why, specifically our choices in romantic relationships. Why does the heart reach for something that is toxic to it? Are we just recreating a pattern? Is it simply a manifestation of childhood trauma? Why do we remain comfortable in our discomfort? Why are we so afraid to leave and venture into the unknown? Why do we remain fearful to make new discoveries?
When is it really love?
Creating this film is my attempt to find patterns and break them. So many of us are unable to do this. I wonder if it is out of ignorance or fear.
Or perhaps, some people are just "healthy". Boring. Sometimes, I prefer chaos, and what healthier place to channel my chaos than into art?
And so I give you Honeymoon Phase, beginning with Jane, waking up from a nightmare, just a few hours after getting married. Set in Venice, California with a colorful cast of unrelenting charaters (think crazy beach hippies who play the acoustic and listen to classic rock and do...a lot of drugs), we watch Jane reach for everything and everyone to comfort her as her anxiety intensifies, forcing her to break down and break on through to some clarity. Her transformation comes out of the chaos.
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